Right now, as I type this, My mother is scolding me. And also, as I type this, I have the urge to do something dangerous again.
Why? Because I lost the letter/invitation/list of activities to my Graduation Day: March 29,2011.
She’s in front of me, telling me this insulting, depressing and humiliating words. I’m afraid to blink because my tears will fall. I have no one to turn to. I can’t talk to my friends because it will ruin their special day.
I don’t want their day to end up like mine.
I no longer fear death, I feel like I’ve already given up life a long time ago. I want to stress how horrible I’m feeling right now. But words fail me.